8-27-16 Opportunities

•Opportunities• 

I've turned the volume up all the way in my head phones 

I never know when dinner is ready

If my grandma is leaving

I never gave them a kiss goodbye 

I never had the last meal 

I'm missing every opportunity 

Every opened door 

I can just reach out and grab it but my vision makes it look too far away to grasp 

Everything is blurry 

But the sounds are perfectly clear 

My finger is stuck on the volume button 

It gets louder and louder 

And I'm just fine 

I'm fine with the destruction in my ear drums 

Sitting in the dark 

Eventually I lose my hearing 

The sound of a bass drum slowly fading away

The song ends and I can't hear any longer 

I've missed my opportunity to have the last kiss 

The last meal 

I slammed the door shut 

But I can't hear the clash of lock against wood 

I don't know where I'm going 

I'm locked behind so many doors 

I've lost the most important sense of all

Realization

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