7-26-16 Wake Me Up

 •Wake me up•

My legs can't push pedals 

My arms can't open doors

My eyes pass over the sun rise

My hair stays in knots 

Clothes litter my bedroom floor

I promise I'll read that book 

I promise I'll write another poem

I promise I'll write that song that I've been thinking about

I promise 

I pr...

I'm not creative 

I'm not an artist 

I'm an amputee starfish too lazy to grow

I can't hold anything anymore

My mind wanders to the moon and stars 

Dancing away in the dark

Asleep 

One pill at a time, sometimes I forget I need them to survive my days

I can't put this into fancy metaphors 

I'm made of water and broken limbs 

Maybe my blood isn't flowing fast enough 

Or flowing at all

I'm a song without lyrics 

A picture book 

A children's drawing 

A picture worth one word

Someone wake me up

I'm so sorry 

I'm just so tired

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

6-6-23 shedding

 it’s fine  don’t worry  i’m stepping out of this body to understand something better  I never felt like I could put my feet up anyway  The coasters on the coffee table weren’t used  The wood is still wet  I always asked for tea but you never bought it  I didn’t want to ask for tea anyway, I guess i’ll just have water  It’s dirty in here, I can’t sit down  I didn’t want to move my chair over anyway  It smells like grass and old books  I didn’t want to read to you anyway You can keep it all to yourself I’ve already changed out of my clothes  I didn’t want you to see my outfit anyway The carpet is scratchy  I can’t play my record anymore  I sold them to someone else  I didn’t want to dance anyway  But here now in this new body  I can rest my feet on your lap  I love feeling your warmth anyway  You got me a coaster for no apparent reason  The wood is dry  We had no tables, you gave...
Read more

5-31-20 Breakables

 •breakables one beat after another  it bangs in my chest  like a drum without a sound  without a bass without a rhythm  i’m the only one who can feel it’s aching thunder  like something trying to burst through the skin  who is behind the sticks? I really will never know  no cymbals no shells but i know the feeling of this drum  it doesn’t stop until the song ends  and it’s only the beginning
Read more

3-10-23 Despite It All

 i’m wrapped up  and here I am living despite the suffocation  I don’t deserve this  and here I am being loved despite the hardness of my heart  I forget how to walk  and here I am walking on the waters before me and ground that shakes  I’ve turned away  and here you are standing before me /despite it all/
Read more