6-14-16 Steps

 •Steps• 

I reach so far I can no longer see the tips of my toes 

I step so close to the edge I can feel the rocks rolling down into the empty chasm 

I know I can fall but I take another step 

Closer to falling 

Closer to sinking 

I look down and see stars floating in the abyss 

Another step

I look up and see an ocean 

I reach even further 

But I never look back 

The ocean is too vast 

The chasm is so deep 

Another step

My feet grip the edge 

Inches closer to falling even further 

I reach even further 

The wind knocks me back

I no longer see floating stars 

I look up 

A dried up ocean hangs above me 

Everything is dry

Everything is dead 

Everything looks familiar 

I continue to reach 

I continue to step forward 

I'm covered in dust 

Another step

Dry sand fills my mouth 

I reach further 

I'm blinded by the wind 

Another step

I look up

I see the ocean stretched out above me 

Wrapping around me eyes 

I reach further 

I look down 

I draw the outline of the chasm with my finger 

Another step 

Reaching further 

Another step

Reaching further 

I'm gripping the edge 

The wind knocks me back 

This is familiar

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