2-7-17 And I Will Continue With This

 •and I will continue with this• 

Sometimes I forget where I truly stand 

In this place of grace and peace 

That sweet and delicate feeling of emptiness 

The good kind

Not when your heart is heavy and destructive 

But when it is so full

And it starts to overflow and empty onto other people 

We need to all end up with this feeling 

Not like you're on top of a mountain 

Not like you're the one who put the flag right on the tip 

No no you should be honored to dwell here 

In this place of forgiveness and peace 

This unfailing love and wonder 

How dare we criticize the author of our thoughts and our shape 

I'm standing here now and finally realizing what it's all about 

To look up and remember what really lies before me 

I don't know what the future holds 

But I'm grasping this need of eternity with my savior 

My present and past are messy 

And so is my future 

I'm going to trip and stumble 

Cut my face and try to calm my shaking ankles 

But if my God is walking beside me, I have no need for these crippling body parts 

My arms are useless without your hands 

With the legs you've bent for me 

And I will use them to stand in Your awe and inspiring and full filling presence 

God teach me to stand 

But also teach me to kneel before You

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