12-3-16 Doubt or Destination

 •doubt or destination• 

What does it mean to be enough?

Because I've searched in every boys hands 

In my parents sticky and frantic words

My friends bold and daring eyes

In the poems I write on my arms and legs 

In between the lyrics of the songs I belt from my bedroom window 

In the spines of books 

Or in the depths of my own being 

I've never seemed to find that I'm enough for this wondrous and vast animation 

Darkness has choked me 

Fear has tripped me 

My own thoughts have consumed me 

It's a distraction 

None of that lasts forever 

And none of it should determine your identity 

Doubt is a cruel swordsman 

He cheats and lies his way around your mind 

Stabbing and prodding at every single little spark of light 

Someone once told me 

Doubt your doubts 

If you let it take ahold of you, you will not move forward 

You will never achieve your greatest goals or overcome your deepest fears 

So what does it mean to be enough?

That feeling of acceptance and comfort 

That everything might just go right instead of left 

Up instead of down 

When doubt doesn't make your heart bleed 

No, because you are enough 

Just being you 

When the creator of all things sculpted your body and painted your mind with the colors of the skies 

You were enough 

And in the mist of your brokenness and doubt 

In the darkest of nights when anxiety grips your eyes and throws them into the depths of the sea 

You ARE enough 

Realize your worth is more than rubies and fancy clothes and doubts 

You may be a small crack in the stone 

But see the bigger sculpture you are apart of 

You may not be enough in the eyes of people 

Or in your own heart 

But knowing there's a God that designed the world from the tiniest ant to the tallest mountains, created you 

And that you are as unique as a snowflake in the stormiest blizzard 

You are enough to Him 

So doubt your doubts 

Take a step back once and a while and realize who you are 

Because even though anxiety may trip you 

And fear may blind you 

Know there's a bright light awaiting its resurrection 

Break open your mind and reveal your shinning light 

That's what He created you for

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