8-6-16 Homesick

 •Homesick•

I'm homesick but I don't want to go home

A home is suppose to be an escape 

But it's what I'm trying to escape from 

My chocolate covered window isn't edible 

Every breath puts a bitter taste in my mouth 

Everywhere I turn is another locked door and bolted window

I'm pouring my mind onto paper

Nothing makes sense

I can't find the harmony in this song

I sit alone on the cold kitchen floor 

The clicking of my dogs feet and the creaking of the walls are the only harmony I hear 

I'm blind behind my tears 

But another faint voice takes my heart

Who Am I?

I cradle your heart 

You are my treasure

You are mine and mine alone

I put the sun in the sky just for you

There's a seat for you here at my table 

Make yourself comfortable 

Come daughter 

Drink my water

Take my bread

Put your weary head on my shoulder 

I am a crutch for your broken heart

I am a raft for your sinking thoughts 

I am a blanket for your cold hands

I am a lantern for your dark eyes 

I am a case for your tears

Stored away behind my eyes 

Don't cry

I will cry for you 

Don't bleed

I will bleed for you 

I'll take your pain

I'll take your weakness

I'll take your sickness

I'll take your drowning thoughts

I'll take your suffering 

Who Am I?

I Am your home

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