7-11-16 Fear

 •Fear•

Fear makes my body shiver and my face turn blue

Fear dances to a bad rhythm in my feet 

Soon I forget how to walk straight 

What my next step is 

Fear changes what I see in the mirror 

Every part of me is a mistake 

Something went wrong when I was made 

Maybe an incorrect ingredient 

Or I wasn't stretched far enough

All my fingers are shaking 

I can no longer keep the air trapped in my lungs 

Fear holds me in a metal box 

The clock is ticking until my spine no longer stays up right 

Until the last thought in my head hangs there like an unfinished spiders' web 

Fear keeps me from the edge of cliffs 

You aren't aloud to fly 

Pulls the mic from my hands

Saying "You aren't good enough, next please." Takes the color from my eyes and holds it in a jar on a high shelf 

Everything is the same color and texture 

Fear puts me in a maze 

A rat trying to find the way out 

But the walls rise and fall like an inhale exhale 

Nothing looks familiar 

Was I here before?

Right or left?

The only escape is up

Lifting my head breathing in the moon and stars and their delicate dance in the sea of sky

Don't be afraid when your corridors keep changing 

Remember the only way out is up

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