5-18-16 Remember

 •Remember• 

I remember pure darkness, like a volcano erupted and all that was left behind was hot black flakes filling my lungs and blinding my eyes.

I remember cold, like someone left all the windows open on a winters night

They were my only companions 

I remember staring out the deep glass of my bedroom window waiting for the sun to rise, but it never did

I remember a man, walking up to my door step

He visited once or twice a day

He was brighter than I ever dreamed

He knocks...I dismiss him

I close the door but...he doesn't walk away 

He knocks again...I dismiss him and close the door

But he just stayed and stayed and stayed

I remember emptiness 

Like pouring a glass of water into a cup with a hole in the bottom

I'm so thirsty but my glass stay unfilled 

I remember letting the man in but instead he pulls me out

He leads me to walk on the warm green grass 

He takes me to lie in the daylight

The warmth is smooth on my skin 

He lets me run across fields 

I'm so out of breath but my feet won't listen 

I remember running to the man feeling his full embrace, like I'm finally home

He gives me a new cup to drink out of

"This one" he says "never emptys"

I drink from his cup, feeling the water through my entire body 

I remember forgetting what darkness was