12-25-16 I Refuse to Miss My Last Hours

 •I refuse to miss my last hours• 

I knew seconds would turn to minutes 

And minutes would turn to hours 

And hours would turn to days 

And days would turn to years

I knew every moment was another chance 

But I let the sunlight slip through my finger tips 

I waved my shadow goodbye and the next sunrise was preparing

I didn't know I'd end up here 

Stuck in a fast forward 

Endless sunrises and sunsets 

And I never even stopped to marvel at their wonder

The snow would dry up and flowers bloomed 

And I never even stopped to pick them 

To look closer and see busy bees and fat worms 

Stuck in a fast forward 

I thought I had enough time 

I thought I had enough sunsets 

Enough flowers to pick

But time snatched them all away from me 

I've written about ticking clocks before 

But I was so naive 

Such a hypocrite 

I would write about my future 

The things I would accomplish and the places I would visit and the people I would encounter 

But now I lay here staring at a clock 

Laughing at me 

Dancing away too quickly 

Thinking I wanted to join it in it's tango 

But I knew this would happen 

I'd count how many sunsets I had 

There always seemed to be enough 

5,840 

Each one more beautiful than the last 

Afraid of it's ticking like Captain Hook 

A crocodile continuing to circle my boat 

Ready to devour me 

But it waits 

I want to stop the sun 

To throw a rope around it and tie it to a tree 

Maybe I'll slow down the sunsets and sunrises 

Put more numbers on the clock 

But I live in my fantasies 

Smashing crocodiles and catching the sun

I realize it's still slipping through my fingers

The hours are short but I'm quicker

I'll continue to count my sunsets 

And I'll explain every single one "Dashes of pink and orange"

"Like God spilled purple paint"

And I'll remember them all 

I knew this would happen 

But I'll marvel in the magnificence of time 

There is something everlasting over the last sunset 

I'm not sure how many I have left but I know there's even better ones on the other side