12-18-16 Walk or Move In A Leisurely, Casual, Or Aimless Way

 •walk or move in a leisurely, casual, or aimless way•

I've been known to wander 

Into forest and groves 

Under oceans and lakes 

In the cracks of my bedroom walls 

In between the rests of my music 

Wanting to rest in the sounds and warmth 

Covering myself in words and photographs 

Worrying about memories 

Stressing over future ones 

Avoiding hands and bright eyes 

I'm gripping my bed sheets and lying in the folds 

Drying up 

Getting lost in my desert 

Fantasy my own realm of reality 

Reality my own realm of nightmares 

Waking up in a dome of ash 

When will I stop wandering? 

And people have noticed 

I'm not the same as I was 

I remember I used to be so sure of where I was wandering off to 

But some of the trees have been cut down and the oceans are empty of beautiful creatures 

I used to ride those dolphins and feed the fishes

Distance does not exist 

It's never ending 

No matter how far we walk we always end up in the same place 

So do we really wander?

No, we explore 

We can't let go of this ground, but we can discover it underneath 

Being lost means you get to discover a new path 

Trying different ones until you find your realm 

We've already discovered our comforts 

All the things we love 

Warm sheets, hot tea, a cozy spot 

But what if we left that?

Away from our comforts and away from the warmth 

Embracing the cold 

Threatening the wind and blizzard 

I'm not afraid of wandering 

I want to explore my discomfort 

The things that make my skin crawl and my lips chapped 

That ruins my hair and makes me bite off my nails 

Everything is the same as it was yesterday 

I don't want to wander and hide myself 

I want to wander and uncover the worlds most mysterious trenches

The creatures thriving there 

Sleeping on just a blanket and admiring the sunrise 

Climbing mountains, fighting back the wind 

If you ever have a moment 

An instant of time 

Wander 

Into the sky 

The trees 

Even a book 

A song

Swim in the lyrics 

Create your own 

Wander in your own words 

What if we wandered into each other?

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