10-18-16 Lasts and First

 •Lasts and Firsts• 

Why would anyone want to go back?

Why would anyone want to change it? 

Why would anyone give up?

There's so much to look forward to 

And you can only go forward to see it

You can't see where your headed walking backwards 

Stop turning around 

Look straight

Put your chin up 

Strap on your high heels

Life is full of firsts 

Your first kiss

First heartbreak 

School dance 

First love 

First breakdown 

The first time you wondered what your future holds 

But it's also full of lasts 

Your last heartbreak 

Your last time feeling alone

Last time doubting 

Last time wondering if everything is really worth it 

Last time questioning your true worth 

The last time you let your past mistakes control you

The past has already been done 

You can't change it

But that's the beauty of it I guess 

You can start a new at any point you want

A new you

new heart

new eyes

a new reason to get up in the morning 

Reminiscing on your past only makes the gash bleed more 

Take your past and burry it 

Take a moment and look around 

Do you have a bed, roof, and food?

Be thankful 

For goodness sakes be grateful 

You are so lucky 

It's not easy, I'll definitely give you that 

But you are living in a world of opportunities 

Don't quit your after school activity 

Don't quit your instrument 

Don't quit singing 

Don't quit writing 

Don't give up on something because you know there's someone better 

If you continue to strive to be better then them, that's competition 

Strive to be better than you 

Be better than your past 

Life is full of firsts

You have so many ahead of you

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