10-10-16 Charge

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Do you ever have that moment where it seems like the world is flipping upside down 

When trees no longer grow leaves

When you can't see the sun passing over your head every morning 

the night is cold and damp

When your bed no longer feels like home 

No matter how hard you try you can never get your hair to look right 

That your face is a weird shape and your hips are too small

It's just too dark in every room you walk in 

Or too quiet 

Like there's no gravity at all

We're just floating in our own atmosphere but we can't breathe 

The mirrors are smashed 

Your clothes are dirty 

The kitchen floor is sticky 

The living room is full of strangers 

The dining room is always empty

The bedrooms are quiet 

The porch light is always on

When everything is as it shouldn't be 

I took my bike and charged into something that wasn't there 

The cold didn't hurt but my fingers were screaming for warmth 

My face burning and heart racing 

There was no car in the driveway 

I thought I'd be okay 

But I was all alone 

These are the moments that bring clarity 

I have to stop running 

The world is not on my side of the team today 

But tomorrow will be a different playing field 

However 

The stars were hung in the sky for all of us to observe 

The trees were left bare for us to climb 

At least we have a bed to rest our head in 

At least we have a body to stuff our personalities in 

A body and mind so wonderfully made how could you deny your beauty 

How could you strike yourself down for having small hips and goofy hair

At least you're different 

Stop running away from what you have to face 

You aren't alone 

Someone is holding your hand 

You might not be able to see but you can feel it 

A tight grip saying "I'll never let go, you're never alone"

And you believe it 

Walking straight into your own disaster 

Ready to face the music 

But you aren't alone 

You never were alone 

In all these moments of clarity 

Someone is holding your hand